A lot has changed. Seriously, from being in a relationship to being engaged and eventually became a single woman. But hey, everything happened for a reason though.

Anyway, I have been donning a hijab since August last year. June 2015 till early this year was the most heart breaking and depressing moment in my life. But now, I am fine and I have overcome it. Accepting the fact and takdir that, it was not meant to be. I let God's will and just follow his decision, which is slowly unveiling itself.  

While overcome the painful moment, I seek advise from my mum and sister. Surprisingly, my nieces gave good advise too. My family members kept an eye on me since I told them what was happening. I was so unhealthy back then, i grew skinny, I lost appetite, I was silent. Totally not myself. I put a strong face and never tell anyone what was happening until I told the truth as I tried my best to keep a cheery face. 

But only God know how much tears I shed. How many night I cried myself to sleep. How many nightmares I had to faced. Which until now I had trouble sleeping. But luckily, I gain backed my sleeping pattern if someone doesn't contact me at the wrong time as the time difference is 5 hours. (^~,) 

Alhamdulilah, from that experience, I find people who I can trust, people who always have my back. They are my strength to push on eventhough during my dark time, I did thought of committing suicide. See how depress I was. 

Since April, my life is slowly back on track. People find myself to be back to my usual noisy and crazy self. People find me smiling while looking at my phone because of someone who can't seem to stop annoying me in a good way, really help my brain to think of a good comeback. (^^,)

I want to say thank you to those who prayed for my happiness. Praying for me to be strong. Praying for me to find someone who eventually mend my heart. Thank you so much. May Allah blessed you.

To my ex fiance, thank you for all the wonderful memories. Thank you for loving me and letting go of me when you stopped. Thank you for all the time we spent and I pray for you and your family to find happiness. As I find my happiness back, I hope you get your's too with her. 

Lots of love,

Fa'iza Tamrin